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[Feb. 21st, 2011|09:51 pm] |
My body, has transformed so much.
I took a random picture of myself in a pretty blue blouse Fatty bought for me.. I sent it to him, of course with a message, wishing him a good week ahead and.. he's so silly! He asked if he can post it on fb! heee! I know he's very proud of my fitness achievements (till now), which makes me wanna push harder in the gym, sweating it out.. pushing myself to my limit where tears flow down.. I do shed some tears in the gym especially so when I/Fatty push myself relly hard and I'm so close to giving up, But I did not. that feeling is really great.
I was looking through some fitness pros like my Trish Warren and I'm so inspired by their determindation. & looking at their diets, makes me really determined to diet harder for I know if they take 10+years to get where they are now, I CAN DO IT TOO!
Looking back, I used to think packing food along with me is sucha hassle, a chore. gotta wake up so early to do this and that.. I've been dieting for 1 year+ already and I'm so used to this lifestyle, I wanna share it with everyone. Of cos I do cheat a lil at work when I gotta do tasting and all but my diet staples are really clean! :D
At the gym, I am always the only girl at the free weights area **SHOUTS: WHERE IS BEV??** and I draw alot of attenton from the guys, especially when Fatty shouts at me, pushing me on. Some went up to him and said he's mean to me, some give me that sympathy smile when I look at them with my teary eyes.. But I know, I'm working harder than they are! So I smile at them and head back with my training! & of cos Thank you Fatty for teaching me the right forms and techniques.
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I love to try clothes on now! Whether or not I'll end up buying them, I love the feeling of fitting into a M size, sometimes even S! It's a far cry from my past L or XL. and when I take a lil photo for Fatty to see, he'll be really sweet and tell me I look nice, even in the ugliest prints. I love you B.
I know I'm slowly building up my confidence for my body. Slowly but surely. I don't bother about people who tell me I'm loosing my boobies anymore, because it's fitness I want, I am willing to sacrifise my boobies!
I guess only people in this sport understand!
Don't tell me I'm mad over loosing weight.. I'm just doing something most people are too lazy to try. |
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[Jan. 30th, 2011|10:35 pm] |
For I worked very hard to be where I am now.
I see so much improvements from the pictures, and I am very proud of myself.
To those who think that I'm unhealthy/using drugs/doing it for the sake of B etc,
I know..
You are just Jealous. |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2011|08:58 pm] |
Everyone wants to have a Big Bang 21st B'day, becase we only turn 21 once.
But how about the other years? 20, 22, 23 and so on?
We turn those ages once too right?
yup, 21st is the entry to Adulthood, where you can officially sign your own papers,
sign up for this and that on our own because we are now fully responsible for ourselves...
Having a 21st B'day party now becomes like a Trend, that we need to keep up with..
It's a "competition" to see who out do each other, just like MTV's My Sweet 16th..
I have been thinking about what I wanna do for my 21st, esp now that Sharon keeps talking about it..
In the past, I wanted it BIG.. I used to tell Ver to book a Chalet for me, order golden balloons for me etc..
And she gladly said yes.
Not that because we aren't on the best terms ever now, but I just wish for a simple 21st B'day.
I would like to spend my dinners with close friends I havent met up with..
Girlfriends like Xiuwen, Jens, Leenies, Elana, Sophil..
And of cos Wangs, Fer, YC, Bev bev + Myren (Team BM)
A B'day will not be complete without my family, and my Fatty Yang <3
I just wanna spend time with my loved ones who love me, who care dearly for me.. who play super important roles in my life, because I know without them, I wouldn't be where I am today.
As we celebrate our Birthdays, it's not about how grand our parties are, but how much we gained from the past year.
How much we muture, and grow towards being a better person.
A Person with Values and Love. |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2011|09:05 pm] |
We had a wonderful lunch at Din Tai Fung for Mom's bday.. I had so much fun with my family, especially how we laughed at Pa's lame comments! We walked around supposedly to shop but ended up with nothing, disappointing! Pa was really sweet, I told him I liked this dress at Island Shop which Fatty and I saw yesterday. I dragged him there to look at it again, only to find out, actually, it isn't that nice afterall. But Pa was so nice, he keeps insisting me to get it, even after I told him NO! He then went on to look for other dresses so he can buy me one! So sweet!
I like today especially much cos it's been sooo long since we had a meal together! yippie! I wanna tell my parents to have meals more often.
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Before Christmas, I keep telling Fatty that he needed to bring me to see the pretty Christmas Lightings in town.. I'm not being demanding but Christmas lightings brings back memories of Fatty and I went we first got together.... Now that he's in camp and we had so many family functions to attend over at his side, we didn't have the time to even enter town... Being my sweet lil Fatty Yang, he told my the week before Christmas that he will bring me to town on Boxing day for dinner and movie! I was so happy I jumped on the spot! So Silly right? hehehe.. He even said there are 12 days of Christmas so we can take our time to look at those lightings! And yes that's exactly what we did on Boxing day. I was sooo happy, he let me order whatever I wanted at Chilis, he let me eat all the fries on my plate cos he knows I LOVE fries! (but I was too full! heee!) We took our time to walk along town just in time for our movie at Cine, I felt so blessed that night. I Love you so much Fatty...
Just yesterday we had dinner at this humble unit at Nex, cos someone wanted to eat Unagi... Fatty ordered mine and then he asked: what else do you want honey? I looked over at the sushi counter and saw my favourite Octopus Sushi packed in 3.. and of cos I said I wanted to eat that. Without grumbling, (cos he usually would esp like "too much carbs", "don't eat" etc) he picked up the sushi and paid for it! he knows I loved it and actually offered me to finish up 2 sushi, but I was nice, I shared half with him!
Saying all these makes me miss my Fatty Yang now, all the patience he has for me (other than in the gym) really makes me feel so loved and complete.
Everyday I tell myself that I need to work hard, I want to develop a positive mindset so that in future, I can be hardworking, earn alot of money for Us=Fatty and i... |
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[Nov. 17th, 2010|10:27 pm] |
Now that I know how Army Life is.. I am sure I look forward to spending every single second with Fatty. So nice to not quarrel nor bicker the last 24hours. Yes I know it's too short to do all those, but I find joy in doing the simpliest things with Fatty- sitting on the couch doing nothing. Army is a part of our lives, and I'm sure we'll start to treasure each other to the fullest.
Sometimes I feel like doing nothing. how I wish to be in a room, painted all white, furnished with only white or cream coloured tables and chairs.. and guess what would I like to do? well, I just wanna scrapbook all day long.. Why life can't be that simple? hmmmm... on the second thought, I am really going to look for more creative and Economic way to do all the scrapbooking.. this is something I really love doing and I just wanna get better at.. wish me luck.. |
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[Nov. 7th, 2010|11:30 pm] |
YAY!
FATTY IS LANDING IN LESS THAN 8HOURS!!
WOOOOHOOOOO!!
I am soo happy, I don't know if I can sleep :/
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[Nov. 1st, 2010|10:05 pm] |
SO super duper happy to receive Fatty's texts.. So silly of me, cos I was sooo overly happy that I teared! hehe.. I guess he is the still the silliest, especially at the way he texts me, telling me how cold the weather is till he is smoking? soo lamee! The best thing to all his texts is... he never fails to say : I love you Honey. Which to me, is really great to know. Not that I doubt his love for me, but... it warms the heart, it really does. Now fatty, if you are even reading this from Turkey... Remember my presents heheheheh! Bev's too!
I'm so used to having him right beside me most of the time, that right now, it feels so weird heading to the gym alone, training alone, joking with Stanley alone.. sigh.. But it'll be over soon! Fatty will be back coming Monday! I thought of making him some delicious food when he returns! hehehe! But my time is running out..
While waiting for my faithful 62 to the Mrt today, I was appreciating how blessed I am. How perfect my life is right now. okay, it's almost perfect cos, I still need to find a job to feed me.. Well, other than that, I kinda have almost everything.. Thank You God :) I wanna find a good job, I really do! So companies, stop saying I'm too young cos I'm willing to learn, stop saying that I will use this job as a stepping stone cos I'm not! I really wanna know what's there in the Food Industry.. I suppose many of my friends are taking a different trail from our diploma, and well, that's quite sad isn't it? Yes they say that Singapore's Food Industry is limited, but personally, I would really wanna give it a try. So please give me that chance please? |
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[Oct. 31st, 2010|01:28 am] |
oh my! this feels soo weird..
normally I would wait for fatty to call before I prepare myself for bed. But today.. he's on his way to Turkey. Oh fatty, actually you can come back now. thank you. |
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